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Yes! A new cycle of ANTM is finally here and there's even a transgender inside..kool. Hopefully this would help alleviate some of my stress. Yes, i m prone to stress which also means i m pretty useless, yes whatever, but that's just the way i am so live with it. And being rejected twice in a row is not exactly very stress reducing. Then again, i've always failed to live up to people's expectations, so what's new?

And once again, i've realised how having a wide social network in uni is just oh so important. Seriously, save it on the excuses.

And lit is just being lit again. Yes i do like it but then everytime i take a lit module i'll start questioning why i even bothered taking it in the first place since i seriously majorly suck at it. Humans are so prone to self torture, seriously. A simple lit discussion presentation was enough to knock me down. What i've produced is seriously embarrassing and gross. I can totally imagine the horrified mortified look on people's faces tmr as i present.

It really sucks to realise that you are not who you thought you are all along. It's just bad for the esteem.

And a dream i had was very illuminating, it makes me wonder if it's a sign that it's true, or like what people say, reality is usually the opposite of your dreams. I seriously hope the latter is true.

Hoping that things would improve,
Jac

Warning: I forgot to mention that i had a haircut, and now i m plagued with short, screwed up fringe which time from time resembles freaking bangs when its in the mood. It's an utmost insult to me - bangs. (No offence to those who have it, i just so happen to not have da face to pull it off.) Anw, the shorter fringe was suppose to make me look younger and unfortunately, acc. to the hairdresser, "cuter" -_-. Not surprisingly, my old face is just incapable of withstanding any such Taiwan Mei elements. No one has appreciated my haircut so far, so bewarned.